Heal yourself first. The rest will come later.
When I am resting because my body is weak, I need to remember that I am not wasting the day doing nothing. I’m doing exactly what I need to do. I’m recovering.
It’s been quite a year. My health has not been great. After two surgeries and lots of rehab, my orthopedic surgeon has released me to begin workouts again. One month earlier than expected. Yay, Me! I feel like a bird freed from a cage…
…but afraid. I feel broken.
I did not expect mixed emotions at this point. Somehow beginning again feels very daunting. My confidence is nowhere to be found. I’ve felt this way before. In April 2002, I ran a half marathon. In July 2002 I was diagnosed with an early stage of cancer. Key words. Early Stage. One surgery took care of it. No chemo. No radiation. My doctor released me to run again, but I didn’t. I felt defective. It was almost like grieving something lost. I shunned fitness options for eleven years.
That can not happen again.
With that cancer lesson under my belt, I’m reaching out to all my fitness buddies asking for their help. It’s hard to explain how much I need them right now. I’ve also decided to write a series of posts about it in hopes of working through these strange emotions along with the physical challenges. My readers are awesome! I know I can count on y’all to rally behind me.
Lots of encouragement is needed.
I plan to write about my fitness plans and how they are going. Did I mention I need lots of encouragement? Please help me.
‘Not sure what I will call this series. I am certainly no expert on fitness. It will just be what happens to be working for me. A 50-something grandmother who enjoys mud runs and heavy lifting and aerial fitness. There will definitely be running plans, flexibility, and basic weight lifting. You can also expect nutrition ideas, recipes, and, well, probably lots maybe a little bit of whining. 😉 I hope I have the courage to tell you about the failures.
That’s as far as I’ve gotten on the decision making process. I’d love to hear what you think!
😉 -Marci
